That I’m sorry. That I care for them and I wish things had played out more smoothly than they had. But I don’t regret where I am in life now and all I ask is for them to forgive what I had done.
So tomorrow, I’m going fully pink. That’s right. I’m ditching the neapolitan look and going for full pastel pink.
It might seem cliche, but, Halloween. Because I love dressing up. :B
-points to baby tomato’s ask about Zimbabwe-
I’d have to say Brer Rabbit.
Whew. Well. I’d like people to remember all the different versions of me, and fondly so. I want people to know that I loved them, in one way or another, because they were in my life, for a reason. I want them to cry happy tears when they remember me (should I be dead). If something happens that we drift apart, then I want them to remember I’ll always be here, if they ever want to return.
I hate people, in the sense that I’m crotchety. Not misanthropic.
But I love people, the people I chose to have in my life, whether it’s via the internet or IRL. I love them because they are a part of me that’s in another place. So, in short, I want to be remembered as the girl who was everywhere and loved so many.
If it weren’t for my getting pregnant at 25 and deciding to keep my son, I’m sure my life would be in ruins. Ronan and Miikura are the two people I strive for more than anyone else. I have nothing without them. I love Wolfenheimer and all, but… Those two adorable little snots gave me purpose and a strength I thought I lost a long time ago.
Yeeeeah… I’m not entirely proud of it, but I’d like to think that I’m controlling in a good way?
I know it sounds bad either way, but sometimes, I feel that if it’s my way and it fouls up, I can’t blame anyone but myself.
I want you to have one even more badly.
YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW BADLY I WANT ONE.
Ok. YOU might. XD.